Sorry to here about your suicide attempt, Stevo. I never had a girlfriend, but I can sympathize with your situation. Its frustrating trying to find hope with something that nobody(not even doctors) fully understands. Concentrating on other things in life is a good solution. Taking classes is a step in the right direction. Persuing your interests ( hobbies, sports, etc) also helps. There is much more to life than we thing. Best of luck to you.