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Written by Rood at 06 Mar 2003 07:34:13: Absolutely
As an answer to: Slightly askew, but sometimes more than slightly ... written by Paul B. at 05 Mar 2003 21:56:16:
>> and how the brutal reality of self-abnegation has made that life susceptible
>Whew! I had to look that one up! Did you really mean that?
Absolutely, Paul. When a person denies himself, when he sacrifices his true nature, gives up natural instincts for the better part of his life in fear that a child might reject him should the truth about his inner self be revealed, those instincts, thwarted but relentlessly seeking inevitable expression, become highly susceptible to the first erotic outlet which might appear.That it was on the internet, anonymous and seemingly "safe", might have presented an innocuous and harmless diversion. That those instincts, so long denied, so confused and twisted, burst forth first at the insidious "Circlist", however, precipitated the whole dreadful scenario. It is the apparently positive nature of their viewpoint, the intensity of their erotic frenzy, which leads the innocent, the unwary, the 'closeted', into their clutches. And it's all a consequence of shame. Perhaps had the Intact viewpoint been as erotically based, the outcome might have been different, original impressions gleaned from childhood notwithstanding.
The choice of words was deliberately turgid. The need to balance expression of feeling with deliberate obfuscation helped maintain equilibrium in an affair that is both intensely private and public, too. The message was meant for one person, but it could only have been written in emotional response on a public forum. It was an act of mourning. Time, it is said, is the ultimate healer. But one does not merely sit, twiddling thumbs, waiting. One mourns.